Going through life in general is very difficult. While some rejoice with plenty, others suffer in misery. We can attribute this to many reason, of course bad decision and action is the culprit in all this, while they say that saying "no" is the best way to do it, but when you are in such situation, it is easier said than done, the challenges of reality slowly creeps in, and when it hits the hardest, that is the time to you feel all sort of emotions.
A lot of time we can see people in church, and i wonder, what do they pray for? what do they whisper? what is going on in their head? the long eye contact in the altar somehow makes me think, do God really hear our whisper and prayers? if yes, why do people suffer? why do people cry and felt depress at times? they say, that god wont give you anything that you cant handle, but why such suffering? why do God let His people suffer and be in situation that they will act and do wrong actions and why do God allow mistakes?
Why is there a need to test? test of faith and faithfulness. Why do temptation necessary? they say it is a test? but at the expense of those who surround you, when you hurt people because of your action, and they say, God has let such to happen for you to be molded and for you to learn from the process.
At the end, yes, no blaming God for the hardship of life because of your lack of judgement. But i just wander, why God allow such?